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Identifying as Poet #ROW80

January 28, 2015 11 Comments

I have told a few people in the last week that I am a poet. I believe I am trying it out to see if I like the title because I don’t think of myself as a poet. First I explained to my fiduciary who handles my investments and gives me advice for retirement that my most important interest at the moment is poetry. He knows, since we do split the money he makes in the market, that I am interested in his best performance with little or no chit-chat. He has incentive to do that since his own profit is tied directly to mine. He is not a stock broker, but has a fiduciary responsibility to me for which I pay him a percentage of the profits. I switched to this arrangement before the last presidential election because it all felt too volatile and risky. Since he has done a bang up job I feel secure to trust his future work on my (our) behalf. My debt free, secure financial position is one reason I can dabble with being a poet. I have arrived at a time in my life during which I can reflect and use my talents in any way I choose. Now that I have told the fiduciary I am a poet he is convinced I will not be producing any more income during my lifetime. I am fine with that because it puts the pressure on him to make sure I never become a staving artist.

Last night I told a friend I have known for many years who came over for a drink and conversation. He is visiting from out-of-town, so we had news about our lives to share since our last reunion. After he left I was kind of surprised that I had told him about the poetry writing at all, let alone describe myself to him as a poet. I did make it clear that although I publish it daily I am not promoting it per se because it is not very well-developed. I am not ashamed of it, but I have no pride in it either. It is a practice and a new persona. I told him I admire and want to emulate Dorothy Parker. He recited a couple of her witty lines. I am not sure how sincere he was, but he told me that I am like Dorothy Parker. We were laughing and joking together all evening, so this was part of the fun. In retrospect I am giddy about being compared to her, and this little exchange has given me new hope about my poetic prospects.  With some work I do believe I can be witty, satirical, and poetic all at the same time. I have loaded up two books by Dorothy into my Kindle and pre-ordered another about her life, Dorothy Parker Drank Here, by Ellen Meister. Now I am carrying with me two poetic muses, both ghosts. Henry Howard represents Tudor England and Mrs. Parker post WWII New York City. That should cover everything.

It is in the spirit of Mrs. Parker that I am working on curses and blessings suitable for twitter.  They must be short and pithy.  I am calling them #Twurses and #Twessings.  Join me if you like.  I think there is a market.  It is a bit of haiku in 130 characters, ideal length. I think rhyming makes it memorable. #Twurse the snow and howling wind, Super Bowl parties must begin.  I am sure I can warm up and do better than that. Thanks to all the #ROW80 writers who have taught me to have a good time and just do it, as they say at Nike.

ROW80

ROW80

 

Persistence Pays #ROW80

January 26, 2015 9 Comments

 

ROW80

ROW80

I have managed to slip out of my creativity rut, just a bit. I admire the way so many writers in this program work on several books or projects at once. I rarely start a post that I do not finish in a day, so this longer attention span on a written piece is intriguing. I heard an interview on PBS radio with a professor of creative writing. He shall remain nameless, in part because I do not remember his name. He described two distinct ways of working on a story. He starts by just grinding out the words, and later in the day he edits them. He says the later session in which he edits can be relaxing and easy. I see this advice as a basic guide for me to expand my ability to tackle different subjects and new kinds of forms. I not only need to just do it, as they say at Nike.  I also need to just edit it. I have written poetry this week that is not all about soul and butterflies, so that is a start.  I spun a little story into a poem about real life.  This is something I might try with matching prose and poetry posts.  Starting with beheading was just too tricky, but I did relate to my grandmother’s craft work and extreme busy-ness with a short tribute.  I still reserve judgement because I have not been doing this for very long.

Two goals are eluding me, but I think I can find ways to accomplish them.  I want to be loyal to my dream journal by writing before I get out of bed, or even stir.  This worked well for a while, but during the last week my dog, who has end of life issues, needed me to let her out during the night 4 or 5 times, including first thing in the morning.  I can keep a little bit of the memory while I walk down the stairs and give her the relief she needs, but it is difficult.  I have tried to capture specific words and colors from dreams to inspire the poems. I am sad about the kidney failure of my darling dog, so a certain sorrow takes over as soon as I think about how often she needs to go and how much water she is drinking.  She has had a good life, and is not in pain, but this is a shadow covering the early morning dream memory.  Maybe I need to write about my dog.  I have also failed to physically visit the U of A Poetry Center.  I keep planning to dedicate Friday to Venus, to revere all things of beauty and love.  I think sitting around the Poetry Center reading is a total dedication to beauty, but my daily routine has not capitulated enough to allow this to occur.  I will overcome, although maybe not on a Friday.  I know that once I establish a habit, a ritual, I will enjoy it.  I do love the podcasts and the apps that read to me in the comfort of my home, but I believe the pilgrimage to the poets’ place will change my perspective.  I am not taking these failures too much to heart because the whole point was to write poems, and I am doing that.  Onward and upward..

I am chiming in one day later than some because yesterday I made a stunning discovery in my family tree.  I do think that since many of my real family members have been the subjects of fiction and even operas and poems, I should look more closely at making stories based on fact, or even on imagination.  These characters are already alive in my thoughts and dreams and do some predictable stuff.  I enjoy all the time I spend learning about the family facts and the supporting evidence.  I notice that fiction writers develop their characters out of thin air, perhaps with a culture or time in history in mind.  I can start with facts and the skeleton of what is known to  make my stories real. I can also write about my dog and stop whining about my precious dream journal.  Soon enough she will be only in my dreams.  Now is my chance to see her in real life and help her with her dreams.

Artemisia the wonder hound

Artemisia the wonder hound

Artemisia the wonder hound

Artemisia the wonder hound

 

 

Meeting Expectations

January 8, 2015 8 Comments

cocktail that wants to be a poem

cocktail that wants to be a poem

People walk through the doors of your expectations.  This has been my belief for most of my life, and has proven to be a valid one.  I have high standards, but notice how I am much more likely to apply them to others than to myself.  I do set goals and make commitments, but not usually in a public way.  This is why the #ROW80 challenge is perfect for me.  I have set myself an expectation of working more creatively and do a daily bit to achieve that goal.  I want to practice being more poetic in all aspects of life, so the drawing, photography and poetry are intended to build on themselves .  I expect to become more observant in all aspects of my habitual life. There are already a few good results:

  • I have kept my dream diary daily, concentrating on the words I associate with my dreams
  • My daily drawing practice (digitally assisted) is enjoyable. I warm up for the day by making visual art
  • I have written short poems to go with the art, inspired by the experience of creating it
  • My attention has expanded to include all kinds of subjects for poetry that I had not considered

The addition of the art has made this exercise natural and easy for me. I have written poetry before, and even looked for art to use as inspiration.  Making the art myself  is a new and interesting way to tie my attention to a written project.  Usually I write the prose, then add the visuals.  Starting with color and form is a good way for me to see action and hue within the emotional tone I want to set.  I have not attempted to draw anything realistic.   My best work is not representational, but based on geometry and color.  I am not afraid to try, and am considering going to the botanical garden and trying to do a depiction of the cactus section.  Words to go with the cactus poem have been rattling around in my brain as a think about the idea.  Although I do publish my work, the purpose of this venture outside my normal writing style is completely personal.  I am not seeking adulation or followers.  I am curious to see if my writing practice can expand and include more comedy, enlightenment, and beauty.   So far, so good!! Now, for the poetry of others:

  • I adore Dorothy Parker, and would love to emulate her style of poetry
  • The U of A Poetry Center is holding a reading tomorrow night, and I may attend
  • I discovered I like reading the Kindle on the exercise bike, so I plan to collect poets to read while I ride
  • I will shop Amazon to discover the work of poets I do not know, and make a stop at the library

In general the poetic life is off to a fine start here.  I have also started a food preparation calendar, which I think of as an extension of poetic thinking. I want my home life, my cuisine, and my fitness regime to reflect creativity and artful planning.   The food preparation trip is actually a very good foundation because it concentrates kitchen time and frees me to wander off into the world of visual art and poetry.  I have had some funny thoughts about food and drink poems I want to write.  I think a cocktail series could be pretty funny.  Asking “What would Dorothy Parker say?” is a fabulous prompt I am using. In my heart of hearts I want the ROW80 to turn me into a glib, sophisticated observer of the details of living.  I don’t think that is too much to expect in 80 days.

cornbread that wants to be a poem

cornbread that wants to be a poem

Mind Work/Body Work

January 6, 2015 1 Comment

Globe

Globe

There is no way to separate the effect the body has on the mind or the mind on the body.  This intricate interaction is centered around self image, accurate or not.  We may not see ourselves as we are.  In fact, the yoga sutras begin by addressing this subject:

1.1 Now, instruction in Union.

1.2. Union is restraining the thought-streams natural to the mind.

1.3. Then the seer dwells in his own nature.

1.4. Otherwise he is of the same form as the thought-streams.

1.5. The thought-streams are five-fold, painful and not painful.

1.6. Right knowledge, wrong knowledge, fancy, sleep and memory.

This was written in Sanskrit and has been translated in many ways since Patanjali wrote it.  This translation is by BonGiovanni.  We learn by reading this ancient text how the mind works.  It is very specific and detailed.  Meditation is offered as remedy for confusion and lack of clarity of purpose.  Westerners have flocked to yoga as the perfect fitness activity, enjoying all kinds of variations on yogic teachings.  Here in the western hemisphere we have trouble integrating mind and body, consciousness with soul and spirit.  We want to have landmarks and rewards for success as we progress. Yoga as a strictly physical practice, even if you include pramayama, or breath control, does not align with the purpose, which is to control the mind.  If we are successful yogis we will not only dwell in our own nature, but we will be free of identifying with thought streams.  This requires constant and uninterrupted practice.  Thought streams arise from ourselves, from the opinions of others, from cultural belief, and from circumstances.  To acknowledge them and let them go is a powerful and uplifting act.  You are not your thought streams!!  This idea is the basis of meditative practice.  Learning to execute the perfect tree pose takes full concentration.  Presumably there is no attention left for thought streams while you balance on one leg and stay aligned.  Asana is not the only way to bring the mind into focus by using the body:

  • Walking or running can be a kind of contemplation.  Using a mantra while you move along can improve focus.
  • Body work by a good therapist offers a healing, non-verbal way to leave the daily grind on the table.
  • Bathing, steaming, soaking, or using aromatherapy reduces the level of stress, opening the door to bliss.
  • Breathing is a simple, always available, way to bring your focus inward to keep your mind in order.

The easiest (and therefore perhaps the most difficult) breathing practice I know is just a simple counting of breath.  Count to ten, marking each inhale and each exhale with a mental number.  This seems so simple that you will be surprised how often you can’t make it to ten without the mind drifting off onto some thought form. When you observe the interruption, simply start again with a silent number one on the next breath.  Don’t struggle with the thought; just let it go. Resume counting and breathing. Do you have a practice to focus the mind and keep it focused?  Do tell.

#ROW80 Writing Challenge

January 5, 2015 11 Comments

winter writing challenge

winter writing challenge

I just read in a fellow blogger’s post about the ROW80 challenge. I have just started a practice to improve my writing by creating poetry and art.  I had not planed to commit to a daily routine, but I am finding that starting the creative day by drawing, editing photos, and making visual art I am more likely to be observant for the day. Observant includes in this case a full attention to detail as I go through my life, and easy flawless observance of boundaries I have set.  Since the group is making personal goals a shared conversation, observant will also mean that I pay attention to my fellow writers and the way they express themselves.  This idea arrived at a most propitious time, since 80 days of tracking my goal of a more poetic life will give me a good jump start to a full time practice.  I look forward to learning how other people contribute to this exercise.

Observe and Grow are the key words for my goal.  I hope to grow my vocabulary, my skills, and my creativity by publishing art and poetry.  By observing the world, as well as my dreams, I will find richer, more vibrant subjects.  I tend to be a scribe, writing just the facts, and supporting the facts with some photo documentation.  I still enjoy that, but feel I could do some story telling, humor, and abstract sound pieces if I develop my poetic sense.  I want to see where poetry leads me.  I am not seeking approval for the work as much as I am wondering what will happen when I apply myself.

For the next 80 days I will observe what happens when I write a poem each day.  This is an adventure I will share. It will include:

  • dream diary work to bring images into daily life
  • reading poetry
  • visiting the U of A Poetry Center
  • developing photography and art to inspire my poetic sense

It is my desire to explore a different way of using the written word.  I think it will open new doors for my self expression.  I also believe my daily life will be enriched by looking for poetic subject matter.  I publish my art and poetry on my Tumblr blog, The Flow.

winter writing challenge

winter writing challenge

Image and Imagination

December 30, 2014 3 Comments

psyche

psyche

psyche

psyche

Each night our psyche brings us images in dreams. We connect with them and live within the dream during our sleep. Upon awakening we sometimes lose the dream images as we file that  dream  somewhere within our unconscious and decide it is not part of our true reality.  Notice that we are within the dream while asleep, and then the images are considered to be unreal when we are awake.  We live within a gallery of art and image, dramas with set and costume, in our sleeping world.  Our awakened ego is concerned with gathering information and meaning rather than absorbing art for art’s sake.  We wake up and enter the world with an explanation for everything.  By dismissing the power of the imagination we loose the opportunity to individuate.  We diminish our own imagination by interpreting our dream images rather than interacting with them.

We run two systems in our awakened world, an economic system and a therapeutic system.  All of our activities are divided into economic obligations and challenges or curing our ills.  We are concerned with “growth” of our personal economy or “healing” our wounds.  It is easy to see the connections that contribute to the cyclical nature of this limited spiral.  What is not so simple is to break these cycles.  If our addictions are fed by information, image is converted by the mind into interpretation. The ego prides itself on its ability to interpret everything.  Since the ego determines that it alone is conscious, all the rest of reality can be fit into the unconscious basket.  The ego explains the image and then its importance is belittled.  We cease to interact with it once it has an explanation.  Imagery has no explanation.  Art and image are animate and inherently charged with insight.

I intend to respect the imagery inside of me by embracing a more poetic view of life.  By bringing focus to imagination and imagery I want to contribute to my own creativity.    I will investigate how I can interact with my psychic and artistic life through practice.  This intention can only be controlled to a certain extent, and it is not my hope to contain my psyche, but to explore it.  It has a lot to say.

Hidden Weakness and Undiscovered Strength

December 22, 2014 1 Comment

Our new bed

Our new bed, Truth

Testing boundaries and applying discipline will lead to mastery of any skill we choose to practice.  We generally rely on what we consider to be our strengths to solve most of our problems in life.  Most of us hide our weaknesses, primarily from ourselves, since others can clearly see them. While I am on a big push to clean and clear out my home I notice similarities between my mental state and the state of all my various projects.  While digging out all the clothing that is heading for new closets in other people’s houses I discover very cool things I had forgotten in the back of the closet. I have both stupid stuff I have barely worn and the most brilliant, well crafted wardrobe imaginable.  The problem has been mixing them all together and overstuffing the space.  Nothing is appealing when it is disheveled and jumbled.  The same thing applies to my sewing supplies, my office desk, my kitchen cabinets, and, (dare I say it?), my mind.  In each one of these cases I go looking for one thing and find 100s of useless items just hanging around for no reason, and a few real treasures I never see or use because they are in a sorry state of order.  This clearing must continue until everything I own gives me joy. This must apply to all things, mental as well as physical, digital as well as analog.  At the end of the month, which is the end of the year, our brand new bed will arrive.  The mattress is named Truth.  The truth is that I have a lot of cleaning to do before it arrives:

What needs to go?

  • duplicate photos, bad photos, meaningless photos
  • paper files of all kinds
  • clothing and accessories
  • bed and bedding
  • decorative items not in use
  • dust and dust bunnies
  • books not in use

What are the mental steps to take to assure I maintain my unobstructed new life?

  • open and deal with paper mail daily
  • immediately discard paper when it becomes useless
  • set goals for maintaining all spaces clutter free
  • deep clean my office and bedroom monthly on new moon
  • create special (clean) area for my dream diary next to my bed
  • menu planning and good freezer management
  • eliminate all junk drawers, closets, boxes, and cubbies
  • find a place to put everything away without cramming

I am looking forward to exposing this entire phenomena.  Often it is said that our greatest strength is also our greatest weakness.  I think we all keep a lot of junk out of sight.  I maintain a clean and orderly home (to the naked eye), but stuffed into all available nooks and crannies are things I do not need or want.  I believe my talents and spiritual life are similar to those overstuffed cabinets.  Not only do I have way more than I can use, but I have some trouble distinguishing one thing from another because the agony is all wrapped around the ecstasy at this point.  I don’t embrace resolutions.  I do want to find myself at the end of 2015 owning fewer things and liking them more.  How do you fight the clutter bug, Gentle Reader?  Who will win in 2015?  I am planning a victory!

 

Clueless about Cuba

December 19, 2014 2 Comments

We all have shadow elements in our personalities.  The attributes that reside in our blind side are clear to others but never to ourselves. Nations have not only espionage in the dark, but also shadow aspects of culture, hidden from the national personality.  This explains why nationalism often leads to irrational pride as well as prejudice against people we do not know.  We learned about torture by the CIA and without examination of the facts most Americans decided it was okay under the circumstances.  What is so odd about that is they knew nothing about the circumstances.  When the news broke that Cuba and the US would begin to talk about resuming relations, many Americans recoiled in horror because they don’t understand what the status quo entails.  Nobody else in the world has an embargo against Cuba, and the US dollar is the official currency of the island.  They make lots of money from tourism, including from plenty of Americans who travel on flights through Mexico, or on their big fat yachts.  There is nothing to loose by resuming a diplomatic relationship, and much to gain.

I went to Havana through Miami in about 1995.  I bought my package through a tour agency but did not apply for a special visa.  I went to the airport and was allowed to board the plane with the Cubans from Miami who had permission in those days to visit a couple of times a year.  There was a grand inquisition at the Miami airport and the CIA busted some people in the holding room who had money..more cash than was permitted.  Dogs were brought in and detected the extra currency.  I had a ticket but no specific study agenda in Cuba.  The immigration officer at Miami international asked me what I was going to do in Cuba.  I responded that I planned to study dance.  I produced a tiny slip of note paper with my teacher’s address in Havana.  He asked where I had met her.  I told him in a dance workshop in Tucson.  He turned to the dozen or so CIA dudes there and said, “If you believe her, she can go”.  I went!!  The Cubans on the flight were quite amazed that I made it on the flight.  I was the last one out of the Havana airport because I was not carrying a “gusano”, a giant duffle bag full of goods, which are taxed by Cuba.  They were puzzled when I told them I did not know anyone in Cuba and would not give away my things.  I flew back to Miami with nothing at all.  I gave away all my clothes, toothpaste, pens, and the suitcase itself.

I spent 4 days, and visited both my dance teacher and the family of a Cuban friend of mine.  She gave me cash and asked me to take them out to a fancy dinner.  It was all arranged at the buffet in my hotel.  Only foreign tourists are allowed in the hotels.  Since I had invited them, they had the rare privilege to experience the tourist facilities in their own city.  They dressed up heavily and came at all hours of the day to see me.  Since we were sitting in the lobby or in the dining room I had no problems with the staff.  When I asked about bringing my dance teacher to the pool for a swimming lesson, that was quite another matter.  The pool staff and the housekeeper in my room told me I would NEVER get a Cuban into that pool.  This housekeeper had been invited by her own aunt, who was a hotel guest visiting from Spain, but was not permitted to sit poolside.  I took this as a challenge, and convinced the concierge that it would be too embarrassing for me to retract the swim invitation I had already made to my friend.  I whipped out the Spanish word pena, and wallowed in it.  The argument took a while, but eventually I wore her down and was given a special permission to borrow a kick board for the use of a Cuban in the hotel pool.  We had our lesson with many hotel staff members looking on in both shock and admiration.  I won my personal little social revolution in the pool, and felt very satisfied.

I learned a lot while I was there.  Since that time much has changed, and is obviously soon will change more rapidly.  What struck me about the Cuban people was their resourcefulness and affection for life.  They are the kings cariño, and the soul musicians and dancers of the Caribbean.  They cook, they laugh, they party, they dance, in seriously limited circumstances.  They accept the fact that their revolution has resulted in repression and dictatorship, and yet they still have pride in that revolution.  They suffer from economic problems we do not imagine, and respond with creativity.  I thought when I went that the relations between our countries would be resolved soon.  Then Elian Gonzalez came to Miami in 2003, and was deported back to Cuba. Laws changed, visiting rights were withdrawn, and we slipped into another decade of the same separatist policy.  I am not sure I will go to Cuba again, but do recommend it for anyone interested in music, architecture or tropical culture.  There is no need for us to remain clueless about Cuba.  There is much to learn about the rise and fall of communism.  While we were busy being excessive about capitalism, they were busy with their communist revolution.  The results vary, gentle readers.  Neither communism nor capitalism has yielded such fabulous peace on earth.  Let’s get over our ancient political categories to examine the potential for good.  This deal was brokered by the cutest Pope in the Vatican, my man Francis.  I am pleased that higher logic is being used to resolve this issue.

Spirit of Giving, Animism

December 10, 2014 8 Comments

first box to go

first box to go

I have a rather animistic relationship with my possessions and potential possessions.  I find them in a somewhat psychic shopping style, and buy them in a love at first sight condition.  This happens on a regular basis with jackets..and other items of clothing.  I adore costuming and potential costuming.  I like it way too much.  When I first find the unusual jacket/prom dress/beaded top I believe we are meant to be a pair.  I see us as fabulous fashion partners stunning and shocking our fans.  This is where the delusion begins..but not at all where it ends. It ends in my closet, my garage, and alas, gentle readers, in my barn.  The truth is that after a brief romance, all these dazzling duds live a life of drudgery, never seeing any action or fun.  I need to set them free for their own self realization.  They need to party as their original construction intended.  No clothing is happy in the bottom of the drawer or the back of the closet.

Yesterday on PBS radio a lady was reviewing a book about Japanese style tidying up and animistic treatment of the objects in the home.  The author had been a Shinto shrine maiden in Japan in her youth, so she really knew a lot about space and ritual.  Her method of cleansing starts with a realization that we are not treating our objects with love and respect if we allow them to pile up and collect dust.  She emphasizes the feeling of happiness an object must evoke in order to stay in our presence.  She aptly notes that old papers never give us feelings of happiness.  By keeping so many objects that do not make us happy (any more) we restrict our own spacious feeling and daily comfort.  I listened in the car to this radio interview and felt very personally touched by this message.  I recently chipped the glass on vase containing fake amaryllis that my mother gave me about 15 years ago.  It has been on display in my living room in a prominent place all those years and we have enjoyed it.  It is not by any means the only gift I have that she gave me, but I do feel an attachment.  My partner and I talked it over and joked about it, and I am ready to part with the object, for the good of all involved.  Someone may recycle it if I set it free.  It has served its purpose and now it can do something new.

Today my friend is going to visit while I go through my clothing to determine which items truly contain joy for me now.  I do not dare to estimate how much needs to go, but I now see my wardrobe as a family.  I have cramped the pieces into prison quarters with no light or air.  How could they possibly be happy as my wardrobe, overcrowded and starved for attention?  The majority of these items need to live in another person’s wardrobe, where they can be loved and treated well.  Then I will have a well ordered place for the happy items that will remain with me.  The Japanese method suggests that while our socks are in a drawer, they are on holiday.  We want them to rest and feel good for the next time they go on our feet.  We must pay attention to the state of the holiday resort by assuring proper order and visibility for the resting clothing.  I totally love this whole concept, and am sure my clothing will applaud the good news.  I just told a friend that by the end of the year I plan to make my closet look like  a Shinto shrine.  He said, “Send me a picture.”   Now I have made a true commitment, and at this point nothing looks less like a shrine than my closet.  I have a goal and a deadline.  I look forward to making the clothing that makes the cut very happy in the future.

#CrimingWhileWhite

December 4, 2014 5 Comments

https://twitter.com/jasonjross/status/540250505256005632

While protests on American streets continue a new protest movement is taking place on twitter.  White people are discussing white privilege as experienced by them.  It captures the other side of the policing story from the point of view of the beneficiaries of a highly prejudiced system.  I think most of us know being white is an advantage, but we are not aware of how much of a boon it is to white criminals.  Equal protection under the law, if it were to be equal, would extend all the way from safe, secure protected living environments for all to criminal justice that deals out fair and equal sentencing.  If you take a look at this trending hashtag you will see some shocking examples of system failure.

I am white to the WASPiest extreme.  See my super Brit ancestors to validate my whiteness.  I live my life in such a way as to avoid all contact with doctors, lawyers, and police.  I have been highly successful with this plan, in part because I am white. I have no crimes to report, pre se, except that I was an undocumented worker in Tecate, Baja California, Mexico, off and on for many years.  As a wetback gringa all privilege and courtesy was bestowed on me by the migra on both sides of the border.  There was never any problem. I have not crossed the border since 2003 because things just became too complicated after 2001.  The era of the #WetbackGringa, wild and free, became a thing of the past.

I think the #CrimingWhileWhite phenomena comes from unconscious prejudice embedded in our culture.  I don’t think there is willful or criminal intent by police to treat citizens by different standards.  That is why the grand jury is able to rule that there is no probable cause to try the cops who ended lives while on duty.  These preferences, or assumptions that white people are not threatening society, are not consciously accepted by the individuals dealing out the uneven justice and protection.   Systemic privilege as well as systemic prejudice exist in the collective beliefs of a culture.  Just as people have shadow qualities of which they are unaware, so do institutions.  Institutional shadow qualities are even harder to nail because there is no institutional Jungian shrink to assist the patient in seeing its whole being. The very nature of shadow prejudice is to hide and stay hidden because nobody wants to believe we are acting from such base instincts.  I have been a petroleum princess in Venezuela and a wetback gringa in Mexico.  I can tell you from experience the only thing better than being a white woman is being a bilingual blonde white woman.  We are automatically above suspicion and nobody ever suspects we understand Spanish, so they say anything in front of us, assuming we will not know what they are saying. Have you ever had an experience of white supremacy or privilege, gentle reader?

https://twitter.com/jasonjross/status/540259742073909248