Dreams of Symptom Exchange

May 22, 2013 — 4 Comments

reflecting

Since returning home after ancestry quest I have tracked my dream life.  I think  am digesting centuries of action in my nightly dramatic  interpretations.  My homework assignment to record dreams and notice the archetypes I find in them has not been completed in a very rigorous fashion.  During my weekend with Thomas Moore we talked about dreams and did a group discussion about one lady’s dream that she shared with us.  My guilt about not doing homework as the rebel archetype dominates the teacher in my chart of origin, came into focus.  I fell deeply to sleep that night and did start to notice and record dreams on a regular basis while I was still on the road.  I visited homes and graves, museums and city streets where the specific ancestors lived and died.  I started to have some strong emotions about history and groups of the dead.

Although Mayflower ancestry is highly valued by some, I am much more excited about those who rebeled against the Pilgrims.  The sooner they dissed Plymouth, Salem, and the Pilgrim way of religious fascism the more I liked them.  My special pride in my one Wampanoag ancestor makes me feel entitled to some explanations.  They will not be forthcoming, and I need to understand that I am the sum total of many warring factions going back in time.  While Mary Stuart was burning one ancestor at the stake, another ancestor was defending her in Scotland.  This is how life works.  We do not just have two crazy parents, we have all of karmic history in our collective inheritance.

I  have had a dream now more than once that is symbolic and clear.  I enter a big building, box, loft, kind of structure, where I am joined by all kinds of other beings from past and present..maybe future also.  The place is intended to heal, but the multiple streams of energy mix and collide inside the space.  The beings leave having exchanged symptoms with other people, leaving with new issues, side effects and thoughts.  The desire to dump one’s own faults on others who are handy is at the root of this gift exchange gone so bad.  Common practice is to blame the dead, or the absent for almost everything, trying to leave with only shining and laudable characteristics.  This creates a mighty vortex that fills with neediness and greed once the door to the blame barn has been left ajar.  A boomerang of dreadful feelings never fails to be returned to the sender.  I am no dream interpretation expert, not even a very faithful recorder in the past.  This series of dreams in the warehouse health space is about healing, boundaries, and inevitability.  I haves used the flower essence Mexican Hat recently, which I find to be powerful and freaky. It is blooming in my garden in a few places. Under this hat’s influence the connections to others that we wish to ignore are highlighted.  This flower essence refers to boundaries and healing, exactly like the dreams.   Reflection is imperative to interpret both sides of symptoms, causes, and remedies.