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Time and the Trickster Archetype

December 26, 2013 — 8 Comments

How is your relationship with time?  A busy, rattled life may or may not bring satisfaction. One thing it can’t bring is free time. This is a gift you must find for yourself.  How can we define free time?  Is it doing something that is free of cost?  Is it free form, without a preconceived schedule or goal?  Is it free from all previous habits and delusional thinking?  Clearing the schedule involves being clear about priorities.  Find time in your life by observing carefully what happens to your time.

  • Schedule practice times for skills you want to improve
  • Budget time to find new pleasures
  • Eliminate time spent in unhappy pursuits
  • Liberate one day a week to do things differently
  • Examine the trickster in your emotional landscape
  • Learn a meditation practice to follow

It is time to plant the seeds to be harvested later.  Contemplative use of time and seasons brings meaning and depth to daily life.  Without perspective we often fall deeply into habitual use of time that is both wasteful and depressing.  The spark of new joy can be consciously brought into being by doing things differently on a regular basis.  This can be as simple as taking a new path to work, trying a new food, an art gallery, or activity.  It is not important to spend money to change the habitual use of time; It is important to notice how much time is invested in unhappy activities.  We can distinguish between duties that are unpleasant and bad habits by confronting the inner trickster who will always identify with your shadow instincts.  The trickster inhabits the emotional territory enforcing crazy concepts that keep you stuck in emotional sludge.  Look for a tendency to make excuses and flake out on your own best intentions.  Meditation is the remedy for trickster tendencies, because it clears the mind allowing spacious, free time.

We have a finite amount of time, and once it has been spent in one way, it can never be retrieved or recycled.  As the new year approaches, why not take a new look at time and happiness?  They are closely related.

Obstruction of Justice

November 12, 2013 — 5 Comments

Justice

Justice

What is obstruction of justice, exactly? Many of us feel that somehow our relationship with the government is unjust. We think our tax dollars are spent without enough consideration. We feel cheated.  We feel mislead.  The formal definition of obstruction of justice is complex and complicated.  Federal law defines perjury as obstruction thusly:

I. Whoever

II. a. under oath or b. in any

i. declaration,
ii. certificate,
iii. verification, or iv. statement

under penalty of perjury as permitted under Section 1746 of title 28, United States Code376 III. in any proceeding before or ancillary to

a. any court or
b. grand jury of the United States

IV. knowingly

V. a. makes any false material declaration or
b. makes or uses any other information, including any

i. book,
ii. paper,
iii. document,
iv. record,
v. recording, or vi. other material,

knowing the same to contain any false material declaration,
shall be fined under this title or imprisoned not more than five years, or both.377

So if you lie to the Feds about Federal law you will be in trouble with the court.  Richard Nixon was brought down for his mendacity.  He made an effort to mislead the judicial system.  If you were alive for Watergate his is probably the face of political hanky panky at it’s most absurd.  Since Nixon, however, we are not feeling that our democratic tax dollars are used fairly.  We see our elected officials blatantly serving the lobbyists who support them.  We see the giant and growing discrepancies between the most wealthy and the poverty-stricken.  We are watching as liberty and justice for all vanishes from the United States of America.  A sliding scale for prosecution of crime fills the jails and penitentiaries with people of color while the banker robbers of the world are still mostly loose on the town.  There is now a sense that the government spies on the citizens, lies to the citizens, and often fails to serve the interests of the citizens.  The fourth branch of government is now lobbyists.  We never see their faces, but we know they are out to lunch with our elected officials and we are not.  In  our guts we know this is unfair.

Probable Cause

November 11, 2013 — 5 Comments

I became familiar with this legal term when my parents were robbed by lawyers who worked for a care home owner.  A young lawyer obtained the signatures of my severely mentally impaired parents in front of no witnesses and proceeded to use those signatures to rob them at the bank, destroy all their civil rights, trapping my dad in the care home, as was the plan.  Two weeks after they robbed and attacked my parents they ran away but kept about $8000 or so for the so called services they had performed.  To recover from this attack my parents’ real lawyer had to work and be paid to restore their estate plans and civil rights. It was costly and destructive as well as blatantly criminal.  I wrote to everyone including John Evans, the Federal prosecuting attorney in Tucson.  I was told that since they had obtained the signatures, even though they did not know my parents and had drastically damaged their health and well being, as well as their finances, they were allowed to pretend for those two weeks to represent my parents and be paid for it.  The FBI initially investigated the case and told me there was obvious fraud. Later they told me they had to drop the case because the border issues demanded all the man power in Tucson.  It felt distinctly as if the Feds decided that lawyers can commit crimes because they will fight back if you attempt to bust them for their obvious crimes.  It is easier to pick on border crossers than your friends at the AZ Bar.  Eventually the Bar did slap the young lawyer on the wrist, but he had already left the firm where he had robbed my parents. To say that I lost all respect would be an extreme understatement.

I have now owned a home that is supposed to be governed by an HOA.  The people on our HOA board have refused to do anything that AZ law requires of them, but have insisted that they have a right to invite the general public here to donate to a charity scam they have run in the condo next door to me and at the curb for many years. Feeding the Homeless in Tucson Parks is the philanthropical outreach our HOA board has used to express their special jurisdiction here in our public areas.  This 100% criminal operation has been been in operation in this same location for many years.  Since they have never been stopped breaking AZ law or stealing money from the dues directly they decided to give themselves the right to use the non profit corporation (our HOA) and our public areas and driveway to operate this charity scam.  None of the volunteer hours, or truck loads of bread, or cash donations that came in the mail, or items left in the driveway for many years has ever been reported to the IRS.  I have been informed by the HOA lawyer that the board has broken no laws by using our property to run this criminal scam. That means they plan to continue to use the fire lane in front of my home to invite the public here to be hostile to the entire neighborhood and pretend they are doing philanthropy.  The latest known solicitation for donations was done to Tucson Appliance for a new stove this spring.  That stove belongs in a homeless shelter or the food bank, not in a residential condo that has been used for criminal purposes.  If soliciting drive by donations and pretending to be a charity is not a crime against the neighbors and society I think it would be very hard to find one. My neighbors and I have reported these crimes for years, but law enforcement has not been available to stop this.  I have the impression that law enforcement cares very little about stopping crime or enforcing laws.  I may be wrong, but we shall see.

If you are asked for donations from anyone, ask to see the 501C3 the IRS issues legal charities. It is apparently easy to operate fraudulent philanthropical donation sites for many years with no interference from the IRS. Our local law enforcement has practiced and advised willful blindness to these crimes, which I think is incredibly weird.  I have hired and put  a lawyer on retainer because this has gone on for too long and seriously damaged our property value. I think we are entitled to law enforcement from the agencies we pay to enforce the law.  However, if you need to hire and pay a lawyer to show those agencies probable cause it is better than allowing crime to trash your neighborhood.

Time Line Insight

November 10, 2013 — 2 Comments

Dr Kenny

Dr Kenny

In May I was asked to draw a time line of my spiritual life. The participants in Thomas Moore’s workshop at Kripalu gathered in small groups to discuss what we found drawing the timelines.  The brief discussion among 3 students was revealing and gave me much to ponder.  One of us had been drawn to church and attending mass by herself as a child, with no particular parental support for her daily devotion to Catholic ritual.  The other woman in my group had been influenced heavily by her environment and felt trapped without a known exit strategy.  My own timeline referred to my parents and briefly to church (because I only had to be a Sunday school student for a couple of years) but after the age of 16 had nothing to do with formal religion.  The exercise was quite challenging, finding the major spiritual events or pivotal points in the soul’s journey.

My studies in Sacred Contracts with Carolyn Myss also includes assignments to create archetype timelines.  I am finding this practice to be the most powerful of all the exercises I have ever used.  It seems we warp the past and forget much of what seems extraneous, storing symbols that represent the events or people rather than storing an accurate version of reality in the past.  I went to my elementary school a few months ago in the company of the people with whom I attended elementary school.  We reminded each other of the past, but we had different versions edited and stored in our vaults of  memory.  When we toured the auditorium I knew it was the scene of one of my first encounters with the rebel archetype.  On the occasion of my third polio shot I became violent with the nurse, principal and staff who were trying to inoculate me.  I curled up in a chair in the front row and used my feet to strike out at the adults.  I won the battle and did not get that shot. The school never informed my parents, so I was 3rd vaccination free until the oral type came out and we all took it again.  Victory was sweet, and I felt that I had vanquished a dangerous and vicious foe.  It was Valentine’s Day.  I returned to my classroom uninoculated in my little red and white dress. A rebel was born.

When I saw the auditorium  as an adult I found myself walking next to a classmate who has become a medical doctor.  I also found myself giving Dr. Kenny, who was extremely popular and cool as a kid, a very hard time about his decision to practice medicine.  I don’t dislike Kenny at all, but was completely involved in a highly displaced freak out over medical procedures I do not trust.  This rebel theme continues throughout my life with a special concern over medical professionals and everything they do.  Rational or not, my mistrust for all things allopathic has grown and I believe it has served me well.  What I have discovered by creating timelines to assist my memory is that these themes that started early in life have shaped our lives and decisions in profound ways.  Opposite my rebel archetype is the teacher archetype who wants to teach others healthy alternatives and self care.  Duality is inherent in looking into the past.  We are the actor, director, and the script writer of our own dramas.  Once we have edited the memory of events it is likely we have hidden our own shadow qualities from ourselves.  To make peace with past agreements and commitments gone sour it is necessary to find what part one played at the time.  Timelines are like story boards that illustrate the flow of events and emotions that created our past.  Our futures will be defined by our understanding of the past.  I think I am having a big breakthrough realizing that Kenny would never hurt me, and maybe I have vexed myself unnecessarily over fear of medical professionals giving me shots. I can probably stop striking out at the adults with my patent leather shoes.  Thanks, Dr. Kenny, for the fabulous Jungian analysis.  I feel much better now.

Tethys, Water Goddess

October 29, 2013 — 2 Comments

Tethys was a titan, which means an original goddess, before Zeus and the Olympians took over the pantheon.  Her sisters were Nyx and Gaia, who ruled darkness and the earth. She was Mother of the Sea, ruling clouds, springs, rivers, and streams.  Her children were called Oceanids.  Water is the emotional element;  Tides, currents and undertows closely resemble human emotional forces.  The energy or wave of an emotion passes through the body as well as the life of the person involved.  Tethys is known as the goddess of nursing, and if you think of feeding the earth with clean water, her services are needed more than ever today. To get in touch with Tethys realize that flow and currents can be ridden, but it is folly to fight against them.  Emotional problems are the same; Denial or repression will not end them, but can make the ride much rougher. You can not change the waves, but you can learn to surf.

Selena, Goddess of the Moon

October 17, 2013 — 2 Comments


Selena bears good tidings at the full moon. She rides through the sky in a silver chariot reflecting all that is true and eternal.  She was a Titan goddess, predating the Olympians. Selena bathed during the day and rode around the heavens at night.  Her love affair with a handsome mortal resulted in 50 daughters.  She has the power to control time, mask reality, and  expose the truth.  She had her lover put to sleep eternally so she could visit him in a cave forever.  She is distant, cold, and yet kind.

The full moon is associated with mania and extreme states of mind.  The time between the last new moon and the full moon tonight was characterized by the loony government shutdown and all it entailed.  When the old men in the Senate had nothing, the women organized to end the stalemate.  They shed light on a ridiculous situation.   I am reminded of a saying attributed to the Buddha:

“There are three things that will not long stay hidden, the sun, the moon, and the truth.”

Selena

Selena

Dining Blind

October 15, 2013 — 3 Comments

Last week in San Francisco my friends and I attended Blind Cafe, an enlightening evening in the dark. This is a show that travels around the country, gathering local volunteers and donations in each city in order to put on the production.  None of us knew what to expect, other than a blind tasting and some music.  It turned out to be amazing on many levels.  Happy hour was in dim light with the guests drinking wine and meeting each other as well as the visiting puppies in training and their guardian/trainers.  The two darling golden retriever mix pups were loving and enthusiastic about partying with everyone.  Our tickets were arranged in tables with seating numbers so when the time came for us to go into the darkness we lined up with a hand on the shoulder in front of us to be guided to our places.  Our group of three briefly met some of our table mates while we were in line.

The room was pitch black and very loud.  It seems that when we have no sight we begin to turn up the volume in order to stay in touch.  The plate of delicious vegetarian food was set in front of each chair, but the table also was full of other items in the center that could only be discovered by feeling.  We were given plastic forks, but they did not last very long for most of us. I was happy to find water bottles in the center, and friends passed me some exquisite bites from other places in the table.  Most of the talk was about the food and how to find it, but somehow the person across the table from me started talking about his ultra special diet.  Before you could say gluten intolerant I was involved in a heated argument with this stranger in the dark.  We were already in an organic vegetarian situation, so I did not want to hear that eating one of the goat cheese roll ups would cause him to become bipolar.  Quickly I determined that he took bipolar drugs as well as LSD and copious amounts of alcohol, but that was not enough.  He explained that he had a masters’ degree in interpersonal shamanism and was therefore totally aware of the incongruities he presented.  He said he agreed that LSD might make him think he is bipolar/bisexual.  My friend seated next to me asked me why I was freaking out at this man, and I asked myself the same question.  Luckily it was time for us to all do active listening during the comedy and music entertainment, so we had to end the fight.  I have wondered why this bipolar/bisexual LSD person was there for me, and what archetypes we both represented in the food fight.  I maintained that orthorexia is damaging, and he maintained that goat cheese can potentially cause in his life temporary states of mental breakdown.  I will not know his name, and I was careful when we left not to look to see his face.  He is a mystery shadow that completely engaged my shadow, but in the dark!!!  Who was that????

If you go I doubt that you will encounter any transpersonal analysis sitting across the dinner table from you.  This had to be some special San Francisco thing that could not happen again.  The food and the fun were beyond compare; Who knew it came with an archetypal lesson?

Eternal Child Archetype

October 3, 2013 — 4 Comments

Each of us has a child archetype within our psyche. Carolyn Myss outlines six kinds of archetypal children. They are:

  • Eternal child
  • Divine child
  • Magical child
  • Orphan child
  • Nature child
  • Wounded Child

The eternal child has an attachment to youth and immaturity.  The positive eternal child is the stuff that ads are made of, enthusiastic, fresh and free.  The shadow eternal child has a resistance to responsibility and rejection of the aging process.  The need to stay youthful may lead to extreme dependence on others for security.  The puer aeternus is a man who never accepts responsibility.  He is frequently a character in fiction, and sadly appears often in real life.  Peter Pan is a modern eternal youth story with Tinkerbell playing the puella aeterna.  Clinging to youth can prevent one from reaching the full range of emotions and insights.  Youthful enthusiasm and a willingness to make fresh starts are the positive aspects of this child persona.  Adults who are consistently unreliable or dependent on others reflect the worst aspects of the eternal child.

Peter Pan Peter Pan

Smart Phone Life

September 21, 2013 — 5 Comments

I am afraid of the  mix of media and social media consumed by the population in 2013.  There are distractions of all shapes and sizes.  Being over busy overbooked and overly self centered is a modern sign of success.  Emotional wellbeing of average people has been sinking while stability slips out of sight.  The youth will use technology in ways that are modeled by the adults they see.  When parents and other adults  lead the way to digital detox younger people may also consider life outside the smartphone.

I think the point Louis C.K. makes in this video about emotional range of motion is key.  His claim that smartphone distraction is avoidance of fully feeling sadness or happiness in favor of a phone buzz strikes me as a valid observation.  It is impossible to be engaged in meditation and smart phone love at the same time.  Some feel the attachment to the full time companion, Phoney, is destroying social skills.  I agree, but the strongest argument for limiting time and energy with Phoney is productivity.  Phoney is there to procrastinate with you, to deny reality and to take you away from all the pending doom.  It can never make you feel truly happy, but it does kill time.

Digital detox has entered the dictionary and folks are in treatment for FOMO ( fear of missing out).  This is perhaps the most ironic of all conditions…to abandon real life with no fear of missing reality in favor of never missing out on the ability to respond to a phone.   Do you know anyone who is in need of intervention for this tragic ailment?  I do, but would not know where or how to begin.

Culture in Need of Lovingkindness

September 16, 2013 — 4 Comments

Today we watch another mass shooting unfold in DC like the reality show that it is. The constant reminder of violence must have something to do with the growth and spread of violence. Lovingkindnessis the remedy for our growing epidemic of right and wrong.  If everyone is busy deciding to be right and seek vengeance from those who are wrong who will get in touch with reality?  Have we given up reality to watch it on television and tweet it live?  How riveting will it be to live tweet the IPO of twitter?  While some see gun control or calorie control as the way to solve of cultural problems, I believe we are highly delusional as a society.  The guns and the health issues are symptoms of systems that do not work.  Our distraction is killing us as individuals and as a culture.

Numb and nihilistic as we witness weather and violent torrents of human hatred wash over our land, we twist the truth by looking for the single issue or party on which to place blame.  The events in the world must blur for those who play computer games as well as absorb world tragedy as it unfolds.  The digital distance we have from other other humans and the truth is dragging us in a downward spiral of delusion.  I wonder if people can wake up and think they are in the World of Warcraft…or some variation on it.  We are cultivating violence and maya, when our only hope is in truth and lovingkindness.  Each of us generates energy that fuels the hatred; none of us is perfect.  On an individual basis we must take responsibility to feed and care for the soul of the world until al beings are free.  This will require centering.  This will require a shift in focus and a pivot in the direction of our thinking.